Today I am sharing a heart touching experience of Sai sister Reena.I am sure this experience will uplift and fill the readers with hope and faith particularly those who are praying earnestly to Baba for a progeny.The experiences shared are not mere Sai leela but a true example of faith and surrender to the Lord Sainath. The hidden message in the experiences is that one should not allow to falter his faith on Baba no matter how difficult is the time because Baba is always there for His children.
There can be an apparent delay (because of Baba's will)in getting the answer of one's prayer but all the prayers with complete faith never goes unanswered in Baba's court. Here I am attaching such overwhelming series of incidences and I strongly believe that many Sai devotee will get benefited by reading this post and will experience the similar Sai leela in due course of time.
If any devotee who wish to get in touch with sister Reena ,they can contact me at my mail ID . Jai Sai Ram .
Sairam Manisha sister,
We have been blessed with a baby boy and this is due to the grace of Baba. I suffered two miscarriages in the years 2007 and 2008 respectively and therefore, apprehensions of another pregnancy and maintaining it were high. Regardless of my losses, I decided to hold faith in Baba and remain loyal to Him and be patient. I prayed to Him for strength and to show me the way out of this.We wanted a child desperately and that too, without losing anytime. We were married for 8 years already and then there was this problem that further age advancement could lead to problems in having children. I would repeatedly tell my husband that perhaps it would be best on our part to adopt and get rid of this tension.
My husband would say that we'll wait for another 2 years and see how things happen. During this period, I would often do Sai Parayan (reading of Sai Satcharita) for seven saptahs, this time not for a child in specific but for some peace of mind and to pray to Baba to show me a way out of this. I thus, completely surrendered myself to Baba and decided to wait on His decision. There are stories in Sai Satcharita about how Baba blessed childless couples and those stories would bring tears into my eyes.
Not only this but the parayan had a profound effect on me. I was drawing closer to Baba, my love for Him was growing and I could feel that I had nothing to think about other than Baba, nothing else to meditate upon and remember but Him all the time. I reached a stage where I was becoming detached with my sorrow and pain of not having a child. Rather, I was acquiring interest in reading stories of Baba's lifetime, His contemporary saints and so on. It was as if, the goal of my life to love Baba whole-heartedly and to keep loving Him all the time.
Manishaji, I kindly request you to publish these experiences of mine on your website.
Before I narrate this dream vision, I would like to say that I've always identified Sri Shirdi Sai Baba with my another spiritual personality, whom we refer to as our Guruji. After all, has not Baba told us that He appears to us in the form that we believe in. This could be my personal perception but I have had several visions or dreams in which Shirdi Sai Baba and my Guru appeared together. One night, I had a dream in which my Guru was helping us out in the following manner. I, along with my aunts (I remember seeing one aunt of mine) holding hands with each other were being led by our Guru ji through an ocean. We were all actually walking on the bed of the ocean against the water current. He took us all through to and fro in the waters.
In the same dream, I was discussing this matter with a friend of mine. I was telling her as to how Guruji has led us all through the ocean and what if we had encountered dangerous and fierce sea animals such as the crocodiles, sharks etc. And then I was justifying my own statement saying "Well, if we believe in God then no crocodile or harmful creature would ever cross our path".
I understood two things -
1. In our most difficult times, He is with us, showing us a way out of our problems and helping us out
2. We must trust God and His doing completely, surrender ourselves to Him and then no harm can ever come to us
It was a very beautiful dream and to this day, it touches my heart.
February 2009:I had another vision. My husband and I were playing with a 2-yr old boy. He was very cute and adorable. We were completely engrossed in watching the kid move about here and there, play around and this sight filled our hearts with joy. I was thinking to myself that even if we were to adopt such a kid, that would still be fine with us and while thinking so, we saw a man sitting at some distance. Without being asked anything, the man replied, "He is your son, a child born to you" (yeh tunhara apna beta hai, khudka).
I cannot imagine the ineffable joy that filled my heart. Little did I realize that this dream vision was about to come true and the person who spoke to me was none other than Sai Baba Himself.
Some days following this, I had another dream in which I saw my Guruji standing in front of me. I would pray to Baba to give me an answer or solution to my problem and He would, either in the form of a dream vision or Guruji. In that vision I saw that I was pregnant and my husband and I were bowing to Him to seek his blessings. Guruji was saying "inka emi bhayamu ledu, antha baane jaruguthondi" meaning you need not fear anymore, everything will go on well.
A few days after these two visions, I conceived. It was an utter shock, great surprise and sheer joy that words cannot describe. Of course, Baba had blessed us again.
As weeks rolled by, my nausea and vomiting (morning sickness) increased. Every Thursday Baba would bring me to His mandir and I would make an attempt by His grace to cook and take some offering for Baba. One such Thursday I visited the mandir. The thought and insecurity about this pregnancy outcome was eating me up. I had lost twice and was anxious about the result the third time and was seeking an answer from Baba. At that time, I was doing parayan of Sri Sai Satcharita.
While reading one of those chapters, I came across this chapter 44, where Sri Kakasaheb Dixit expresses his restlessness over achieving the powerful bhakthi of the Nathas. Shama tells him "Why should one feel restless when he has unwavering faith in Baba". This immediately answered my question and cleared my doubt. My apprehensions were quickly overcome since I knew that Baba gave me an answer.
I visit the Sri Sai Baba mandir at Iselin in New Jersey every Thursday. Infact, my journey for the prayer for a child began from this mandir. During those days, another strange incident took place. One evening when I went to the temple, I had a desperate feeling to see Baba in some form or the other. I was wondering in my mind "Will I ever get to have Your darshan Baba?" See how wonderfully Baba replied to this question -
There is a very senior citizen about 75-80 years of age who frequents Sai mandir every Thursday. Looking at him and his devotion, I often wondered if He was Sai Baba Himself in a man's form. He can appear in any form and isn't it but natural for a Sai devotee to search for Baba in every form?
Anyways, after having Baba's darshan and with the thought of seeing Baba, my husband and I went down to have prasad. We took the prasad and sat in one corner of the room. Though I sat there, my mind was weaving thoughts about having Baba's darshan. Just then I saw the old man coming towards us. He stopped by and stared at me as if to say something and then said "Focus on Him and then He'll give you darshan. He appears to me at night sometimes" and went away. I was both puzzled and quite thrilled with joy and excitement. My eyes were brimmed with tears and so were my husband's. It was a feeling as though Baba Himself spoke to us. Just after this a lady came by and handed over the Sai vrath katha story book as a part of vrath udyapan.
Interestingly, there was a baby's photo at the bottom of the booklet. Perhaps, the vrath was done for her wish fulfillment or as an expression of gratitude to Baba. This was very touching and felt auspicious to the heart. The sequence of events moved me that day. I accepted the booklet and thanked the lady, rather Baba for choosing me.
Early next morning I had a vision. I was travelling with my aunt with a shiv lingam in my hand and then as if a voice spoke, "perform abhishekh to this lingam". The dream partially woke me up and while I was still half-asleep, I heard a voice from the pooja portion of the room where I was sleeping, "Mother you were very restless when you came to Dwarkamai, but now you can relax and rest in peace". I woke up with these words ringing in my head and to this day, three months after my son was born, I cannot forget those words of Baba. Also, to date, I've been performing abhishekh to the shiva lingam and Baba's idol in my pooja mandir every Monday and Thursdays. There was no doubt left that this pregnancy was going to go smooth and above everything else, I could feel a strong protection and presence of Baba all the time.
The second and third months of my pregnancy, I had severe nausea and vomitings. So much so that I could barely cook any food for myself. One of my friends offered to cook food and would send it to me everyday. That friend took such a good care of me. She would not cook for herself and her children sometimes but she never forgot to send me food. Isn't this Baba's grace?
Baba's leela in Tests:
Undoubtedly, Baba has complete control over all the elements in the universe. During my pregnancy, a number of tests both genetic and functional were performed. Some routine and others out of the way, just to be on safe side. But with Baba's grace, all these tests came out normal. Truly, where there is divine intervention and protection, everything is bound to come out normal.
The fifth month scanning took place. The normal procedure here in the US is that they generally reveal the baby's gender to the would-be parents who wish to know. My husband was not in favor of knowing. I wanted to know because of one reason. I had mentioned at the beginning of this experience about a man appearing to me in dream and telling us that the child (boy) we were playing with was our child and not an adopted one. I thought that if the dream is to come true (if I am carrying a boy as per the dream vision) than none other than Sai Baba Himself can make such a precise prediction. His words always come true and there is no return from what He says. So the person making prediction in the dream must be Baba then. Imagine the ineffable joy I felt on seeing Baba Himself! He appeared so ordinary in plain clothes like any other ordinary person.
My elders decided to perform baby shower for me in the US when I was in my seventh month of pregnancy. The thought of baby shower itself infused in me feelings of joy, happiness and excitement. There were times when I would think that perhaps I am not destined for it. I was that eagerly looking forward to it. I prayed to Baba and left everything to Him. I told myself "If Baba wants, He will perform the ceremony for me Himself and make all the arrangements too". Gradually, events that progressed along with my pregnancy showed how beautifully Baba planned and made arrangements for the function.
Back in India, once mom went out for shopping and out of the blue bought a saree, which she liked so much. She didn't know who she was purchasing it for. She thought that the color and texture of the saree was appealing and so bought it. A few months later, she decided to send the same saree to me. Now, the interesting part here is that the saree is green in color and this color is considered to be auspicious for the baby shower ceremony. Before sending the same, she told me over the phone that it was as if Baba picked the saree for me. These words touched my heart so much. The day I received the saree and bangles happened to be a Thursday!
I prayed that Baba should attend the function and bless us. I was then reminded of the story from Sri Sai Satcharita as to how Baba attended the udyapan ceremony in Shri BV Deo's house and blessed him. I was therefore sure, that if one prays to Baba and invited Him whole-heartedly, He would definitely attend the function. Only that we should have the eyes to see and recognize Him in whichever form He comes. Nothing is impossible for Him as He can take any form and fulfill His devotee's wish.
Two months before this, my mom, aunts and sisters had gone to Shirdi. I gave my mom a message to by conveyed to Baba - to attend my Baby Shower function. In reply, my mom received a coconut and rose stems from Baba's samadhi. Very gladly my mom came back and communicated the whole thing to me. Imagine the thrill that I felt.
Now, this is how Baba attended the function. The ceremony began. I closed my eyes and imagined as if I was sitting in front of Baba and was simply looking at Him. As the function progressed, a muslim family who were our guests came in. The lady from the family came towards me, hugged and congratulated me. Quickly, she placed a silver Ganesha coin in my hand as a gift. What more could have added to my excitement than the Ganeshji Himself? We went home and then I started to think as to in which form Baba would have graced the occasion. A few days later, I had a vision early in the morning in which I saw faces of Ganesha and Sai Baba alternating.
The dream vision was something like this. I was standing up the stairs of a railway platform and Baba was standing right opposite to me on the edge of the staircase. Looking at the flight of steps so close to Him, I told Him to move from there since He might fall off. After this dream, I woke up and the fell half-asleep.I then saw faces of Ganeshji and Baba alternating with each other. After a careful thought I realized that the silver coin of Ganesha represented Baba and He indeed had attended my function.
On the day of delivery:The D-day arrived, when I was admitted to the labor room. Before I left for the hospital, I prayed to Baba and picked up His photo and Udi and left with them. Up until the afternoon, the pains were getting severe. By afternoon time I felt I could bear no more. I was hyperventilating. Unable to bear the pain, I asked the doctor for epidural. Once the epidural was administered, I started to shiver horribly and could feel numbness through out. On the other hand, the baby's heart beat dropped to 90 from 140. It stayed so for almost two and a half hours showing no signs of recovery.
My aunt and my husband were both present in the labor room with me. The doctor started to worry and said that they might have to do an emergency c-section to save the baby. In no time, all the arrangements were made. The c-section room was made ready, instruments were all brought in place, the nurses were being rushed and the Dr explained to me the pros and cons of performing it. I was just not in a position to think of anything. I was not even able to concentrate properly on Baba due to the contractions on one hand and the shivering on the other which were getting worse by the minute. The moment the Dr and the staff left the labor room for a minute, I quickly told my aunt to apply Udi on my forehead and put a pinch of it on my tongue. She did as told to. My aunt, who is also a Sai Baba devotee got very tensed for me and the baby.
After applying udi, she sat on the bed some distance away and started praying to Baba and these were her words in her prayer
"Baba, this girl believes in You so madly, she prays to You day in and day out. She is already disappointed with previous two losses.This time again she's faced with a difficult situation. Please save her and the baby, Baba. They are both at Your mercy completely."While praying like this she remembered the story from Sri Sai Satcharita about how Baba saved mainatai, Shri Nanasaheb Chandorkar's daughter from the most difficult labor pains and helped her deliver safely. Than Dr came in and as a part of monitoring process, went to the computer to check for baby's heartbeat and what she saw then was a miracle. She jumped with joy. The baby's heartbeat was restored to 140.She said that this was a miracle by itself and declared that there was no need for a c-section.
After that I delivered normally and the process went so smooth thereafter that I barely felt the pain. My son was born and he is very much a blessing from Baba. We gave him Baba's name. The moment he was pulled out from me, I felt a gush of relief and immediately closed my eyes to thank Baba. Without His grace two lives would not only have been saved but are safe and healthy.
My thoughts:Manisha sister the journey was not easy for me sis, I felt lost several times. The first time I lost my pregnancy in 2007, after 3 months, I was heart broken and shattered. I never prayed after that. I would just not go near pooja room. And even when I sat down to pray, it would be so mechanical, devoid of all feelings and attachment to God. This continued for 8-9 months. Slowly, I began to realize the vacuum in life.
The vacuum of not being able to relate to God anymore. It made me feel empty and wrong. This feeling of being lost and belonging to nowhere was eating me up. Slowly I started praying to Baba again and gradually He made me realize that there is nothing greater than Him. I decided that He alone can help me out. He is so generous and kind-hearted that if anyone regardless of religion, caste and financial status remembers Him sincerely and calls out to Him for help, He will certainly respond. Virtues required are love, loyalty, faith and patience.
Love - like you said, we must love Him for nothing but for Him alone. You must of have heard of this - "Baba gives you what you want so that you begin to want what He wants to give you."
Loyalty and Patience - His grace will definitely dawn upon us but we must have a lot of patience for it. Never give up on Him.
Faith - Trust Him completely that He is the doer. Surrender to Him completely and good or bad, leave it to Him and He is sure to take care.
We falter most of the times because we don't surrender ourselves completely to Baba.These experiences can help build and rebuild faith in those devotees who are seeking Baba's blessings, Nothing else would make me more happy and contented if this helps the devotee to rebuild their faith in Baba.
Every time I look at my son, I will be reminded of Baba and His grace and presence in my life. The stories that I had read about Him and saving of His devotees are true to every word. Only that we should have faith in Him completely and surrender ourselves to Him whole-heartedly. He can never see His children suffering. I pray to You Baba that I should never forget You and that I should remember You at all times, be that of happiness or sorrow, joy or misery. No accomplishment or pain must come so close to me that I forget You. My devotion and love for You must be above these feelings so that I remain unaffected by wordly foibles. I must think of You at all times, chant Your name and miss you in whatever I do. Your devotees are constantly witnessing Your leelas all around the world. There is no one who comes into Your fold of grace and yet remains unaffected by Your leelas. Thank You very much Sai Baba, thank You very much!
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